Admit it we all have been there. Losing someone dear to our heart. And one of my friend just did. He lost someone so close to his heart. He lost his very close friend which also was an acquaintance of mine from highschool.
“I’d like to imagine he’s somewhere around the beach just sitting around. Somewhere far away from here with his new identity. Just frolicking all day, enjoying life, having fun. Do you think I’m crazy if I keep that imagination?” he asked me.
“Well, if you tell a lot of people about your thoughts maybe some of them will think that you’re losing your mind. But I personally think that it’s okay. Do whatever it takes as long as it makes you feel okay and give you comfort. It’s not easy so I think it’s okay to think that he’s somewhere else in this universe, enjoying his life. The difference is that you can’t contact him anymore. If the thought of him being okay makes you feel okay, it’s fine by me.”
“Maybe every now and then some random account on instagram will view your story or like your photos. And it could be him,” I said to my friend. And he smiled.
We all have been there. Losing someone who once was close to our heart that it made us refuses to get up in the morning, to eat, and even sleep. But whatever it is, we have to keep going. We have to continue our life. Our life doesn’t stop just because someone else’s does.
“I don’t even look up for reasons anymore. I don’t try to find the answer because even if I do, it won’t bring him back.”
I wonder what it feels like to lose someone you send weird memes or internet jokes the second after you read them. I wonder what it feels like to lose someone you once shared all of your dirty laundry with. I wonder what it feels like to lose someone who will do anything just to cheer you up when you have such a bad day, in a bad mood, or having personal breakdown.
I wonder what it feels like when the next time you find weird memes or internet jokes, when you want to share some craziness, when you want to do nothing but you’d like to have a company. When you have all of that and the person you want to share that with won’t be there. And every single damn time you remember that person won’t be there remind you of why that person won’t be there. And I bet it’s killing you every single damn time you remember why that person won’t be there.
So I personally think it’s okay to have wonderful thoughts about our loved ones that’s already gone. It’s okay to think that they’re somewhere in this world maybe living at Alpen, Hawaii, New York, or inside Harry Potter World in Universal Studio and living their life normally and happily. It’s okay if that thought makes you feel better. It’s okay if that thought can make you get up in the morning, give you a smile, and then you’re ready to live your life.
And I know it’s not easy. It’s always a long road to be okay again. But you don’t have to go through it alone. You don’t.